Kanarina \u00ebsht\u00eb emri artistik q\u00eb do t\u00eb p\u00ebrdorim p\u00ebr nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb me aft\u00ebsi ndryshe. Ajo jeton e varur nga karroca e saj dhe kjo e pengon ta shijoj\u00eb jet\u00ebn si\u00e7 e shijojm\u00eb ne tjer\u00ebt t\u00eb pavarur p\u00ebr nevoja elementare si, t\u00eb dalim, t\u00eb ecim, t\u00eb sh\u00ebtisim.<\/p>\n
Ajo e ka nj\u00eb peng: shkollimin. Ka n\u00eb fakt shum\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb d\u00ebshira t\u00eb parealizuara por ka gjetur nj\u00eb deri\u00e7k\u00eb prej nga ka shp\u00ebtuar, ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb let\u00ebrsia, bota e librave, poezia.<\/p>\n
Kanarina e ndjen se dikush ia ka marr\u00eb k\u00ebng\u00ebn, ajo e di se t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt nuk kan\u00eb faj, pasi ky \u00ebsht\u00eb fati i saj, por t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt duke filluar nga njer\u00ebzit m\u00eb t\u00eb af\u00ebrt nuk i kan\u00eb krijuar nj\u00eb mjedis mb\u00ebshtet\u00ebs. Ajo nuk ankohet shum\u00eb, flet me optimiz\u00ebm pasi vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb si ajo ka forc\u00ebn t\u00eb p\u00ebrballoj fatin q\u00eb i ka r\u00ebn\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Kanarin\u00eb kur e kuptove se je ndryshe ?<\/p>\n
– Q\u00eb e vog\u00ebl e kam kuptuar q\u00eb un\u00eb jam ndryshe nga reagimet e njer\u00ebzve… e ke parasysh, ato reagimet e njer\u00ebzve \u201cu p\u00ebr gjynah\u201d, mentaliteti i fshatit ku jam rritur.<\/p>\n
\u00cbsht\u00eb nj\u00eb ndjesi q\u00eb nuk mund t\u00eb thuhet me fjal\u00eb, jan\u00eb ato shikimet e njer\u00ebzve q\u00eb m\u00eb l\u00ebndojn\u00eb shum\u00eb, sikur shohin nj\u00eb marsiane.<\/p>\n
– Mos vall\u00eb je edhe ti q\u00eb ndihesh ndryshe?<\/p>\n
– M\u00eb p\u00ebrpara n\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebri edhe t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt m\u00eb shihnin ndryshe por edhe ndihesha e till\u00eb mbase dhe nga ndikimi i rrethit nd\u00ebrsa sot nuk ndihem ndryshe pavar\u00ebsisht se si m\u00eb shohin t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt!<\/p>\n
– Nga \u00e7ka ndihesh e privuar?<\/p>\n
– Jam privuar nga shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra, por nd\u00ebr t\u00eb tjera \u00ebsht\u00eb ajo q\u00eb un\u00eb nuk dal shum\u00eb sidomos me shoq\u00ebrin\u00eb nuk dal thuajse fare.<\/p>\n
– Ndihesh e bullizuar?<\/p>\n
– Nuk mund t\u00eb them se jam bullizuar drejtp\u00ebrdrejt apo verbalisht, por ato fjal\u00ebt pas shpine kan\u00eb qen\u00eb dhe jan\u00eb forma m\u00eb e shpesht\u00eb e bullizimit.<\/p>\n
– Po n\u00eb shkoll\u00eb si t\u00eb kan\u00eb trajtuar?<\/p>\n
– N\u00eb shkoll\u00eb kam qen\u00eb shum\u00eb pak megjithat\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb koh\u00eb nga m\u00ebsuesit jam pritur shum\u00eb mir\u00eb po edhe nga f\u00ebmij\u00ebt nuk ishte e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatemi se n\u00eb fshat njihemi t\u00eb gjith\u00eb si familje, megjithat\u00eb ishte ajo kureshtja e f\u00ebmij\u00ebs q\u00eb m\u00eb b\u00ebnin pyetje t\u00eb ndryshme, sikur vija nga nj\u00eb planet tjet\u00ebr.<\/p>\n
– \u00c7far\u00eb t\u00eb prek m\u00eb shum\u00eb?<\/p>\n
–\u00a0 M\u00eb shum\u00eb prekem kur m\u00eb n\u00ebnvler\u00ebsojn\u00eb pasi m\u00eb shikojn\u00eb vet\u00ebm fizikisht dhe mendojn\u00eb q\u00eb jam komplet e paaft\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Ka raste q\u00eb jam prekur shum\u00eb por dy jan\u00eb rastet q\u00eb do t\u2019i mbaj mend sa t\u00eb jem gjall\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Isha e vog\u00ebl, shkonim n\u00eb dasm\u00eb me n\u00ebn\u00ebn dhe nj\u00ebra nga njer\u00ebzit m\u00eb t\u00eb af\u00ebrt i tha n\u00ebn\u00ebs time \u201cku e d\u00ebrgon k\u00ebt\u00eb, atje ka shum\u00eb njer\u00ebz\u201d?!<\/p>\n
K\u00ebt\u00eb nuk do ta harroj asnj\u00ebher\u00eb po edhe rasti tjet\u00ebr q\u00eb m\u00eb ka ndodhur, m\u00eb duket si dje, \u00ebsht\u00eb q\u00eb doja t\u00eb shkoja t\u00eb shoh shfaqje dhe ishte nj\u00eb fjali: \u201cnga do hysh ti atje\u201d<\/p>\n
Pra, e kuptoni? Nuk kishte dyer p\u00ebr mua. K\u00ebt\u00eb e kam ende plag\u00eb t\u00eb hapur nuk besoj q\u00eb do m\u00eb sh\u00ebrohet ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– \u00c7far\u00eb do doje t\u00eb ishte ndryshe?<\/p>\n
– Do t\u00eb doja mentaliteti yn\u00eb t\u00eb ishte ndryshe q\u00eb njer\u00ebzit me aft\u00ebsi ndryshe t\u00eb mos shihen si p\u00ebr gjynah apo t\u00eb paaft\u00eb nga shumica e shoq\u00ebris\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa sa i p\u00ebrket jet\u00ebs time me realitetin q\u00eb jetoj, do t\u00eb doja t\u00eb kisha pak m\u00eb shum\u00eb liri!\u2026<\/p>\n
– Si e mbush vetmin\u00eb t\u00ebnde?<\/p>\n
– Vetmin\u00eb e mbush duke lexuar libra, shkruaj ndonj\u00eb varg poezi apo \u00e7far\u00eb m\u00eb vjen n\u00eb mendje varet nga momenti, por edhe<\/p>\n
duke d\u00ebgjuar muzik\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Po dit\u00ebt e trishtuara?<\/p>\n
– P\u00ebrdersa kam libra dhe muzik\u00eb s\u2019ka dit\u00eb t\u00eb trishtuara (qesh).<\/p>\n
– T\u00eb vizitojn\u00eb shoqet?<\/p>\n
– Ato vin\u00eb m\u00eb vizitojn\u00eb kur munden dhe mbajm\u00eb kontakte online. Rroft\u00eb interneti, tani miqt\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00eb jan\u00eb b\u00ebr\u00eb virtual\u00eb.(qesh)<\/p>\n
– Pse nuk pavar\u00ebsohesh, t\u00eb marr\u00ebsh nj\u00eb karroc\u00eb elektrike, t\u00eb mos varesh nga askush ?<\/p>\n
– Kam frik\u00eb.<\/p>\n
– Nga kush?<\/p>\n
– Nga njer\u00ebzit.<\/p>\n
Kanarina \u00ebsht\u00eb emri artistik q\u00eb do t\u00eb p\u00ebrdorim p\u00ebr nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb me aft\u00ebsi ndryshe. Ajo jeton e varur nga karroca e saj dhe kjo e pengon ta shijoj\u00eb jet\u00ebn si\u00e7 e shijojm\u00eb ne tjer\u00ebt t\u00eb pavarur p\u00ebr nevoja elementare si, t\u00eb dalim, t\u00eb ecim, t\u00eb sh\u00ebtisim. Ajo e ka nj\u00eb peng: shkollimin. Ka n\u00eb fakt […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":8,"featured_media":10616,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[344],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-10615","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-pertej-siperfaqes"],"yoast_head":"\n